God, UPDATE.

SUMMER.

I had just dragged my second luggage off the conveyor belt at Murtala Muhammed  and I had already began to sweat profusely. It was a lot of work. But it wasn’t just that though, it was also the fact that the air conditioners were not conditioning any part of my body at all. In addition, there were so many people in the lobby. It wasn’t just my flight that had landed but two others (one of them a trans-Atlantic flight) and all of us were expected to share one conveyor belt. With over two hundred and fifty people on my flight, and on the trans-Atlantic flight, respectively, and possibly also another hundred on the West-African flight, the lobby quickly became a hot mess. Thankfully, my boxes came out quite early which was a strange change from what it used to be. I’d usually wait another hour and a half after going through immigration, just for my boxes to come through.

But yeah, my boxes were out, and soon I would be too. I was already getting sick with the body odour coming from the people around. Give me another seven to ten minutes and the contents described as ‘aeroplane food’ would spring out of my mouth like a fountain and shower the triggering factors standing around me.

Walking with the two purple boxes on a cart I had rented (I still don’t understand why we have to pay for trolleys in this country..) I walked through the arrivals hall waiting for the heat that would slap my face the moment I walked out of the terminal building. Oh, but it already hit me when I stepped off the plane. You know that itchy feeling you get beneath your skin, and you’re ready to rip off your clothes and grace the airport with your abroad-tanned skin. Could be winter tanned, sun tanned but definitely not Nigerian sun tanned. The Nigerian sun and of course the heat, was on a whole different level. Now walking out of the terminal, and the sliding doors opened up, it slapped me. It really really slapped me. I was ready to take it all off right there and then. Every single piece of fabric on my body. And oh, the sun! For once can we land when its raining heavily so I can be graced with the cool breeze from the Atlantic ocean? I had already started missing the British weather I’d just left. At least, there was always a 10% chance of rain and that promise was enough for me.

But yes, it was hot. Taxi drivers were screaming at me. Random men were whistling and flirting in Yoruba while trying to grab my luggage cart. But boy oh boy, I had missed this feeling.

I just got back and I was home.

Continue reading “SUMMER.”

God

The Light.

“In Him was life and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it”

 -John 1:4-5

I’ve spent days here,

In a room full of darkness,

the only thing saving me is the tiny light that appears every so often within me.

I can’t take it any longer,

I need a larger source of light, the one within me will never be enough

So I go out into a cold and darkened world

In search of the greater light.

 

 

I think I have finally found it,

The light I so desperately seek

It’s there by the ocean—

As I get closer I realize the light is from a group of people

I ask to join them –

They were my only hope

“I need your light

Without it I’ll be dead soon enough”

They take me in as their own—

Nurture me and feed me the word which gave them their light

But nothing changed,

I ate into gluttony but my light did not shine brighter

I was the odd one out,

A spot of darkness in a land full of light.

 

 

It’s been a year now

The little light I once had is totally gone now.

And I had decided the darkness to be fitting for a soul like mine

So I leave the land of light

To continue my sojourn in a jaded world.

Days go by and everything is bleak

I breathe but I am not living;

I have hit rock bottom

And have finally accepted the darkness.

 

 

I see a bright light,

In it appears to be a man—

I walk towards him and I feel the force of life all around me,

He takes my hand and we begin our journey into the darkness,

But something is different this time

As we walk, the darkness begins to turn into a blinding light

I soon realize that the light comes from within me

I had begun to shine

Brighter than a thousand suns

It was so beautiful, words cannot explain

I look up to him and ask him “Who are you”

He smiles and says

“I am the light of the world, whoever follows me will not walk in darkness but will have the light of life.” [John 8:12 ESV]

and then he asks—

“Will you follow me?”.

 

Beauty, God, Love

Here’s to the girls Queens.

“Many women have done wonderful things,
but you’ve outclassed them all!”
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
The woman to be admired and praised
is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves!”

-Proverbs 31:30 (The message translation).

 

Here’s to the girl—
Whose nose was constantly buried in the spine of a book,
the one who didn’t wear make-up to tempt some guy;
but wore it because it made her feel confident.
The one who didn’t ‘take-in’ her school uniform skirt just to get the attention of Wale Olu-Williams;
The one who would wake up each morning to say a prayer for the mean girls who teased her.
The girl who didn’t have a date to prom—
Not because she was not asked,
But because no boy at the time could adequately match the queen she catered for on the inside.

Here’s to the girl—
Who struggled with something,
Her weight, an eating disorder, her appearance—
The one who cried each night because she was called fat, ugly or unlovable
The one who eventually grew to realize she was a queen
The one who learnt queens came in different colors, shapes and sizes
Who would stare in the mirror and smile because she had overcome

Here’s to the girl—
Whose greatest canvas was her body and whose biggest brush was a needle—
The one who wasn’t understood,
They did not understand that her piercings and tattoos were a mere expression of the woman inside of her;
That her wardrobe, though lacking a skirt told the tales of her dependence on no man
Because she was both man and woman for herself
She was a modern day queen—
One ready to rule her kingdom without a king.

Here’s to the independent, young, career woman—
Embracing her feminity daily,
You are so strong—
Working 9 to 5 each day without complaint
Working hard and praying harder
The one who does not depend on some ‘bae, boo or baby’—
To buy her the things that her Father could not
The one holding her own—
Because she knows the men that have come her way would steal her focus from God.
The one acknowledging and enjoying the life she chose for herself.

Here’s to the single mother,
Who would give anything for her child—
The one who does not believe in mistakes,
But call every situation what it is—
A blessing.
Here’s to the stay at home mother,
We acknowledge that raising five kids is more tedious than any 9-5 job out there;
After five pregnancies, three of which were c sections—
You still look like the queen you did 15 years ago
To the strong and beautiful mother
Catering for each of her children’s specific needs

Here’s to the prayerful mother
The one leaving a legacy—
Who wakes at dawn to pray for her household
The one putting the needs of her children above her own
The one who taught her daughter that no man should ever make her ‘get on her knees’
The one who acknowledged that God was the only one to be knelt before
The one teaching her daughter to pray—
The one taking her daughter to Church
Braiding her hair and telling her everything will be alright
The true woman whose goal is to raise a true woman.

Most of all,
Here’s to every woman—
The ones who are and the ones who are trying to be;
A whole generation depends on you so don’t ever feel unimportant
You are so worthy, so strong, so beautiful, so smart
Your kind spirit is your crowning glory which will hold the heart of many kings
There is so much more to you than how you appear
God is on your side,
He’s working on you,
Your story isn’t over—
So don’t settle for mediocre,
He’s making you into a force to be reckoned with
He’s bringing you the right relationships
The ones that will glorify him
Get on your knees and pray, then get on your feet and chase your dreams
Don’t give up
You’d laugh about it in the end
Here’s to the Queen within you x

 

 

 

 

 

Disclaimer: This post is not made to entail misandry but instead to glorify the woman.

God

What Next?

Demi sat up on her bed. Tired and sweating, she felt she needed a break. Her eyes were drowsy and her heart was heavy. She dropped her phone on the floor right next to her bed. She figured she’d pick it up later on or even better, she’d step on it when she woke up in the morning. That way she wouldn’t need to be reminded of that night’s events.

This wasn’t the first time this was happening and she was quite sure it won’t be the last. She wanted to get on her knees and talk. But she wasn’t sure she even knew what to say anymore. Was it going to be the same words she spoke into the air three weeks ago, or the ones she declared at the altar six months ago.

You see with her, it was always a back and forth movement. One week in, the next few out. Sometimes the guilt would settle in, other times, she’d feel absoltely fine, like nothing was wrong at all. But those were the times that scared her the most. Where was her conscience? Was she still okay? As much as she liked the ease that came with not feeling guilty, the silence that flowed with the aftermath of her actions scared her. Maybe her guts weren’t working anymore. But that’s not true. They were working, or at least they were an hour ago.

Demi sighed and curled into a little ball on her bed. Today was going to be one of them guilt filled days.

She picked up the Bible that lay on her bedside table and dusted the surface.  It hadn’t really been a while but the harmattan that year hadn’t been so wonderful.

She flipped to one of her favourite books of the Bible, Romans chapter 7. She read it over and over again, like she had done in the past and each time there was something that stuck out.

21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.

Demi smiled pathetically  to herself. This had been her life lately. So she continued reading.

 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature[d] a slave to the law of sin.

Demi opened the next page of her book that led to chapter 8. The redemption page was what she liked to call it.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death.

These words brought Demi to tears. She wanted to talk to Daddy. Tell Him she was sorry, that she wouldn’t slide back again. But even she knew she was just deceiving herself. She didn’t want to lie and take His love for granted, but in reality, she actually wanted to get things right. So He’d be happy with her again. And here this verse was saying, that there is no condemnation for those in Christ. She wasn’t even sure if she was in Christ.

She began to cry a bit more now. She had heard from different sources that tears didn’t move God. But at this point, she was tired of going back. She wanted to experience His love. But she felt so far away.


So many times, we find ourselves struggling to do what is right and failing nearly every time. Most times, we struggle to let go of people, habits, feelings that aren’t necessarily good for us. And we know they aren’t so great, but we accommodate them.

And then to justify our actions we tell ourselves, ‘Well God wouldn’t have brought him into my life if he was so bad for me.’ or sometimes we say, ‘Well God made me and these feelings, I might as well put them to use.’

But most times, we forget that God did not design us to live by feelings. Living by feelings is thinking with your heart and not with your head. According to Judah Smith, living by feelings dehumanizes you and you end up living by instinct.This is because, each time we follow our emotions, we make use of irrational thinking that brings about animalistic behaviour. So yes, thinking by instinct is animalistic. It’s what gets us to do what we swore to ourselves years ago, we wouldn’t do. It gets us to open up the doors God has already shut in our lives.

But you know what? There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. What does this mean?

It means because of our position in Christ, condemnation is no longer part of the equation of our existence. 

So yes, we’ll make mistakes. Yes, we’ll fall back a bit. We might even go a year without Church or fellowship, or whatever it is people do nowadays. But you know what? God’s love for us is 360. Remember the story of the prodigal son? How the father wrapped his arms around the son and embraced him even after all the boy had done? Yep. That’s God’s love.

Think of things this way. You get free VIP passes to any concert of your choice. All access, No questions asked. But when you get there, you only stay in the stands where all the regular guys are. You’re not quite sure how the passes work, so you don’t give yourself the opportunity to fully experience them. But that doesn’t mean the passes aren’t active. You just don’t know how valuable or how free you are with them. Or even, you don’t know how to activate them.

I’ll give another analogy right before I finish up (Sorry it’s so long).

Imagine a group of people go to a wealthy man’s house and ask for his valuables and he gives them his wife but they still ask for more. Then he goes, ‘But what more do you want? I’ve given you the most important thing I have.’

In both cases, that’s the situation with God. Firstly, He has given us a gift, and has given us the freedom to experience that gift. Secondly, we may ask for so many things, or even nothing at all, and yet still forget the most important gift of all that he has given us – His son 🙂

So what next?

Don’t beat yourself up about it. Don’t be too ashamed to get on your knees and talk to Him concerning it. Remember, there is no condemnation, just the devil’s confusion.

Bible verses: New International Version (NIV)

If you want to know more, feel free to check out Judah Smith’s sermon on Romans 7 & 8 here.

 

Quick note: For all those who asked, the word Daddy is used to describe God here 🙂

 

  • Simi
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I’ve loved and I’ve lost,

I looked beyond the pines,

I thought I had, I thought I was full,

But that was just an illusion.

Brought about by my selfish thoughts,

I guess I wasn’t as good as I thought,

I guess life after all wasn’t a bed of roses but a long chain of challenges, an unbreakable cycle.

—–

I wanted to be more,

I wanted more,

But it was never enough,

It’s never enough,

For the more you get, the more you want and the more you need.

I used every rule, every trick, in the book of life and yet it wasn’t enough, I wasn’t able to control it, I lost myself, I lost it.

—–

I found hope though in the smallest parts of my humanity,

In the thought of making heaven,

In the thought of being with you,

In the thought of finding myself,

In That single thought, I found hope,

I found my self,

And with my last breath, I’ll hold on to it.

I will.
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God, Love

What happens when someone hurts you? 

Hey there! Here’s an insightful  post on a topic that’s actually bothered me for a while, written by Temitope Omotosho.
There’s no doubt about it… one way or another we have been hurt by people close to us or random people we meet each day.
I can recall when I was deeply hurt by someone close to me and I just felt like distancing myself from the person or thinking up ways to get back at the person… to get my revenge.
But God didn’t let me. He made me understand that He has forgiven me of my sins on numerous occasions and He expects me to do the same to others that hurt me.
Honestly, forgiveness was not an easy feat. But I did.
We must all realise that as humans, we aren’t perfect. We all have our flaws and imperfections but does that make us any less lovable to God? God hates our sins but not us. He said in His Word that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. He had already forgiven us of our sins. But we find it hard forgiving those who offend us.

Be gentle and forbearing with one another and, if one has a difference (a grievance or complaint) against another, readily pardoning each other; even as the Lord has [freely] forgiven you, so must you also [forgive]. – Colossians 3:13 AMPC

I have recently just really sat down to watch Passion of Christ. I remember, as shown in the movie, that when Jesus was led to being crucified and up till His crucifixion, they showed simultaneously when He spoke to others about loving our enemies and all. Jesus did as He had taught and showed us that great example, which we are to follow.
But you may say He’s Jesus and had the power and gracs to forgive and you aren’t like Him. How can we forgive when we hurt so much?
We may not be perfect but then we aim to be like Christ. Getting angry or holding grudges against someone that hurt us won’t help matters or do us any good. It would only make us grow bitter towards that person. We all know doing that is a sin against God.

Matthew 5:23-24 KJV, “23 Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee; 24 Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.”

If we have a grudge against anyone we must settle it with them first before bringing an offering to God that He would accept. It means God is in full support of reconciliation/forgiveness no matter what the person has done!
And also,

Mark 12:31 KJV, And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.

You should love your neighbor and also do to others what you would like them to do for you. What if you were the one who offended your friend and did what they did to you; wouldn’t you want to be forgiven?
I’m sure you would.
So back to my question: how can we forgive when we hurt so much?

By praying for those who have offended us. I don’t mean you should pray for them to die or for evil to jump back on their heads or something. No. I mean pray for them to get better. Pray for them to become more like Christ. Pray for them to be saved (if they aren’t already). In other words, pray what you would want another person you have hurt to pray for you.
It may start off difficult at first but ask for God’s grace to help you forgive.
Jesus prayed for those who hurt Him. I believe we can do that as well.

Luke 23:33-34, “33 And when they were come to the place, which is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the malefactors, one on the right hand, and the other on the left. 34 Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.”

Who knows, God may be using this experience to grow you into becoming more like or to enable you show love to them in a way they never thought possible.

For more from Tope, check out her blog by clicking here.

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Seeking Touch: The Writer’s Edition (Jam)

Fear. 

By Jamilla Dambo.

When you hear the word fear, what comes to your mind? Do you imagine yourself in a dark room with ghosts lurking at each corner of your shoulders? Do you imagine yourself at the top of a very steep cliff about to fall? Or do you even imagine yourself drowning in a river knowing that you’re just a new meal to sharks?

A teacher asked me one day, “Do you have any fears?”

And I responded, “Not any I can think of now”.

But after that brief moment with him, I thought to myself:

“I’m afraid to lose who I am now”.

This got me thinking and I decided not to allow such fear stop me from being who I am and even greater. As a result, I always try to remember who I am, where I’m going and what I want to achieve because I believe that I am who God says I am.

Fear means a lot of things to different people. According to the Oxford Dictionary of English, fear is an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. It is a feeling of unease that can lead to a panic attack and in worse cases, even death.

The Bible emphasizes on fear a lot because it is a force that can hinder progress and more than anything, the Lord wants us to grow in all areas of our life. It has been noticed that the phrase “Do not be afraid” (or “Fear not” in some versions) have been mentioned 365 times to use for the 365 days in a year. That’s enough comfort for one day.

Having said all these, does it mean we aren’t supposed to get scared at times? I mean, we are humans after all. It’s in our being. The most important thing is what you do next after you get scared. Do you run away from the problem or face it because depending on you, F.E.A.R can mean two things: to Fear Everything And Run or to Face Everything And Rise. When you choose the latter, you’ll notice that you can overcome your fears and become stronger and wiser.

 

 

Hello, I’m Jamilla and I’m in my first year at Carleton University, Ottawa.

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I am studying Civil Engineering. I finished my Secondary School education in Nigeria and took one year off to take additional grade 12 courses online at the Canada E-School in accordance with the Canadian system of education in order to be well-equipped for my first year in the university.

I am a believer in Jesus Christ and I will also share my experience with Him as well as tips on how to tap into his divine glory in order to excel in him.

I am always ready to give advice. Feel free to contact me by clicking  here

I believe as individuals, we all have a message to share. A message to tell the world. A message we can’t keep to ourselves. A message that’ll make people see things the way we do. At a very young age, I knew this but I didn’t know my “message”.  I knew it was there somehow and I knew I had so much to let the world know. Not until recently did I find it when I finally found a purpose for my life in Christ.

As a person, my goal is to reach as many people as possible to create a stronger force that can make this world a better place. This is my inspiration and writing is one of the means I use to achieve this goal.

Feel free to click here if you need any advice or click here for college survival tips.

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Seeking Voyage: Europa

Hallo daar!

That’s Dutch for Hey there!

This is the first Seeking Voyage Post 🎉🎉🎉 And I’ll be telling you how I spent my weekend.

So I don’t know how many people have seen the movie Fault in our stars. I think a lot…? I don’t know, it was quite big when it came out. But then again, so many people might not be interested in chick flicks. But haha, it’s okay 🙂

Basically, I brought it up because, in the movie, the two main characters – Hazel and Augustus – took a trip to The Netherlands to visit Amsterdam (and along the line, someone else too).

Continue reading “Seeking Voyage: Europa”

God

Perfect Imperfections: It’s a broken world.

Listen to Glowreeyah Braimah – Hear Us Today.

If you thought 2016 was going to be a breeze, then you were probably drunk on Breeezy’s Royalty album.

From the beginning of the year, there has been uncertainty especially with the Nigerian economy – and I’m talking about the value of Nigeria’s currency which seems to fall like autumn leaves.

So far, July has definitely been the strangest of months. From the effects of Brexit sinking into the heads of the British, to war against the coloured in America and terrorism in various parts of Europe, not to forget the attempted coup in Turkey! Fingers are clearly pointing to the obvious – yes, the world may be coming to an end. Continue reading “Perfect Imperfections: It’s a broken world.”